It's really sweet.

Right.
i'm updating.
i'm having sucky sunburn due to carnival. Rarrrgh~OUCH.
i can't even scrunch up my face when i look at something disturbing.
YEOW! I just tried it and ouch. there goes my skin.
NETBALL CARNIVAL
I was so pissed with my school's VP for making my seniors go back.
for some super un-motivational talk.
totally crap.
then i played shooter for like three games.
shooting percentage was fine but i was too nervous.
AND MY THUMB WAS SPRAINED. so i couldn't catch some really hard ball.
SHUCKS.
yeah, nevermind. oh, and my TANLINE FREAKING SUCKS.
like MAJOR UNCOOL.
since i sprained my thumb, i had to tape it, so the tape produced....
a super retarded tanline on my hand. DARN.

oh, just something to proclaim.
FUCK MY LIFE.
great.
life's been pushing me around.
making me emotionally weak and unstable.
in school, all i can do is try to keep that smile up.
[your eyes are fixed and your smile is so elastic,
you buy me roses but they're all made out of plastic.]
i'm strong, i know.
but sometimes, even strong ones crumble.
i think this IS the time i crumble, fall flat and cry.
BUT. i'll just get up and start all over again.
like what i wrote in my song Round They Go.

But i pick myself and go again
It's about a girl/person who actually feels life's pushing down to much on her.
(i'll just use her, since i'm a girl)
she's totally lost, falls from grace hits the ground.
but she kinda sees a light, which is actually a conscious part of her brain.
she follows it, it washes her awake like a waterfall.
and then, she starts to realise everything has moved on,
when she was being pathetic about life. It startles her.
the people around moves to fast.
she remembers all the sad stuff and starts to feel down.
but the conscious part of her brain, slaps her and wakes her.
she gets back on her feet and go ahead.
It's like a cycle, since we all repeat our mistakes.
it all just depends on how many times we repeat it.
that's all.


I'll take a stand and get back on my feet again.
so yah.
i already finished myself off with a desire to grow brain cells.
and I believe i can.
THAT'S WHAT IT'S ALL ABOUT.
so yeah, i'll live with it.
gone for good now people.
TOODLES:D



xoxo